She felt tears pour her pretty face
She felt her heart calming down
She could feel her nerves staying put
She could feel her mind no more going numb..
She was alright…
All safe and fine
On the white sheets of the bed
Lying .. staring.. remembering …
The choice she made for herself and her future
Despite the fear.. confusion and pain

She felt that bump flattened on her tummy surface
Tears streamed her eyes.. finally she had aborted..
Safe and sound her health is now..
Everything went out smooth and sorted

No more fear to have the burden of worry about her future
No more hardships from society to take the blame of defaming their culture
A single mother.. not a prestigious title at her home
They wouldn’t understand the choice for not aborting
Had she taken to keep the child and raise it alone..
She thus made her choice, a choice of independency
A choice she could cherish with plans for her future pathway
A choice she was glad to make accepting the challenges ahead that lay
A choice she judged with her situation at hand
A choice she believes she took with intelligence and mind

She thinks, she analyses her choice
For now its her career that matters..
It isnt time for a family yet- one she could take care of
It isnt what she wants to keep convincing her family for- a position of single mother she could have been
She felt her choice was right- her decision of safe abortion the best
She is safe and alright now
Starting a new life – fresh again

Lirisha Tuladhar is an SRHR and safe abortion rights activist from Nepal and also a part of our Country Advocacy Network Youth Led SRHR Inititative (YoSHAN)